Starting Over Again...

I don’t know if losing weight is something that lives in everyone’s mind every single day, or if it’s just been my own quiet struggle for as long as I can remember. The ironic part is that I was never considered overweight. I was always told, “You look so good,” “You can wear anything,” “You’re so fit.” And while those words were meant to be kind, they created this pressure inside me to never change, to always stay the same. So when my body did change, after having my babies, I became harder on myself than anyone else ever could have been.

I tried everything. Pills, diets, trends, anything that promised quick results. After my daughter was born, my “diet” was cigarettes and soda during a 15-minute break at the factory, and yes, I got back down to my original weight, but looking back, I can see how much I was hurting my body just to get there. After my second child it was different. I was in an office job, sitting more, tired in a different way, and it took longer. I chased every plan again, lost a little, gained it back, quit, started over, and never really felt happy even when the scale moved.

This time is different. I’m not chasing a number. I’m not punishing myself. I’m not starving. I’m focusing on feeding my body with whole foods, getting enough protein, moving more, and choosing foods that help my body instead of hurt it. And I’m also not saying no to life, if someone brings me cheesecake for my birthday, I’m going to have a slice, because this journey isn’t about restriction anymore. It’s about respect. It’s about balance. It’s about finally treating my body like it matters.

More than anything, it’s about my faith.

I want my body to be a temple for the Holy Spirit. Not because the world tells me how it should look, but because this body was created by my Father in Heaven. This is the one physical thing He formed with His own hands, and I want to care for it, strengthen it, and honor it in the best way I can. I don’t want to live the way the world lives, constantly chasing an image and never feeling like it’s enough. I want to be uncommon in a world full of common. I want to feel good, be strong, and live in a way that reflects the gift I’ve been given.

After trying everything else, I’m finally doing the only thing that ever truly works, I’m trusting Him with it. “Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust Him, and He will help you.” Psalm 37:5 has become the foundation for this season of my life. This journey isn’t just about weight. It’s about obedience, stewardship, discipline, grace, and starting again as many times as it takes.

Because here’s the truth, I made this weight loss tracker about eight years ago, and I have never once filled one out all the way. Not once. But that doesn’t mean it was a failure. It just means I’m starting again, this time with a different heart behind it. And I know I won’t do it perfectly. I may mess up. I may have to begin again more than once. But I’m not quitting.

So wherever you are in your journey, whether you want to lose 50 pounds, gain muscle, have more energy, heal your relationship with food, or simply start taking care of yourself, you’re not alone. We can begin today. And if we fall, we begin again. Progress with God is never wasted.

I’m going to keep going, and I’m going to keep sharing, even if that means telling you I had to start over again. Because this time it’s not about being perfect. It’s about being faithful.

Your free tracker is below, and I hope it becomes a tool that helps you move forward with grace, not pressure.

“I am the daughter of a King who is not moved by the world, for my God is with me and goes before me. I do not fear because I am His.” - T.D. Channell

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(Again, made 8+ years ago, updating a new one in my spare time) Download Here